Ick.

I feel icky today. Just thought I'd write really quickly while I soak my nose piercing in saline. I have to do this twice a day for two months. It's getting to be really annoying!

I was a stress-eating monster last night at work. Partially because I didn't make a good plan for myself, and partially because on Monday nights, there is one individual that I work with who likes to make everyone as miserable as she feels. I know I should be the bigger person and not let it get to me, but sometimes the need for junk food when I'm around her overwhelms me. It's nights like last night that get me pretty convinced that I'm going to look for a job that does NOT include floor nursing in a hospital when I move to be with D. It just makes me so stressed out sometimes. It's hard to be around people who are miserable and have an enjoyable night. I feel too much for them, if that makes sense. Also, I have no creative outlet, and I miss that. I'd just like to even make an excel spreadsheet once in a while! I know, I'm a geek.

On the other hand, I know that there will ALWAYS be something that stresses me out. I'm an intense person who likes to work under immense pressure. There will always be an excuse to eat. So there's no reason why I shouldn't work on my habits in the here and now. So, despite having a crap night and not too great of a weekend, I'm arming myself with my little meal idea book that my mom sent to me, and taking all my workout clothes to D's house this week and I'm going to reign it in. Also, I'm going to work out Wed-Sat. I know that will make a big difference. I think I'm just going to forgive myself Sundays and Mondays because of the crazy work schedule, but I really need to carve out the time on Tues-Sat. I'm going to just do the C25K all 4 days this week. I know you are supposed to do it 3x/week, but that seems so slow to me! Plus, I love the all over toning that running gives your body. I'll try it and see this week, and if it's too hard, I'll scale back and do something else on the off days.

Okay, and a quick little off-topic, but kind of on the topic of being fat. So, when did hosiery makers start being true-to-size?!? I haven't bought tights in eons, and I always used to buy the ones that were like for people 20 pounds less than what I actually weigh. I did that the other day, and I totally had a "Too Fat for My Spanx" moment. I know they are supposed to suck you in, but when the envelope you so much that you start to panic a little, that is not a good feeling!! So yeah, I have some tights I'll be wearing sometime in 2054 when I finally lose this weight. I DO however love the Spanx knockoffs that they sell at Target! And I'm totally meaning to get some of the high-waisted ones the next time I make a Spanx run. I always just jack my normal ones up under my boobs, but sometimes they end up rolling down. I'd love to live a Spanx-free life, but it will never happen. Even if I weigh the low end of my weight range. I saw pics of my friend's brother's wedding, and his new wife is an aerobics instructor and one of those people that goes to the gym twice a day. She's got guns like Madonna, and she still could have used some Spanx in her tight, flowy wedding dress. It was tragic, really.

Okay, gotta dry the hair and pack. Can't wait to see D, it's been nearly 3 weeks!!!