Power Mode

I rocked at work last night. That is really all I came here to post. I had a fabulous, amazing salad for my primary meal, and several healthy filling snacks along the way. I ate a packet of instant cream of wheat with one of the tiny little boxes of raisins dumped in for some flavor and headed home, took a bath and hit the sack. Oh, and I also had plenty of water at work last night which helped with the headache I'd been having off and on for a couple days. I guess I was just really dehydrated. I tend not to drink water when I visit D, because the water at the coast either tastes salty, or like sulfur, or both. It's really gross, even with a Brita filter. Must start bringing bottled water! Oh, and if you're into those Crystal Lite "On the Go" packets, I do absolutely love the new Pomegranate Lemonade one- delish!!

Tonight will be somewhat of a challenge at work. I am working with a certain person who- and I'm trying not to be mean here- weighs about 350, sweats profusely, is smelly and on top of it all, is a big old bitch. She has existed to make my life miserable pretty much from the moment I started this job 3+ years ago. She is the charge nurse on nights that she works, primarily, I suspect, because this allows her to sit on her rump and do nothing while the rest of us run around like chickens with their heads cut off. I do charge nurse sometimes too, and had to learn the hard way that what she does is actually very infuriating to all the other staff and that actually, you really are supposed to be doing whatever you can to help out your peers. Every time I work with her I've been letting her get to me. Letting her get under my skin. This ultimately leads to me eating things like chocolate and chips to try and get some calm feelings going. Then ultimately I end up just getting really mad at myself.

I decided last night that I can't let this go on anymore. For one thing, if I keep letting eating be my reaction to how she acts, I will end up weight 350 just like her. I don't want that! Someone has probably made her life miserable and that is likely how she has ended up being such a miserable person. But letting her make ME miserable means she wins. I definitely know it bothers her MORE when I am happy-go-lucky around her. Whenever I get annoyed with her, I think she gets satisfaction out of it. So tonight, pour some sugar on me because I am going to bowl her over with kindness. It might kill me (I am a pretty straightforward person, so being fake nice is very hard for me), but in this case I think it is necessary in order to put a stop to the self-sabotage that keeps happening at work. Eventually I'd like to stop using up all my WPA by the end of my work week (WI is on Saturdays, then I work Sat, Sun Mon nights right now). But until then, that is what the WPAs will be there for and if I start to feel guilty then I'm likely to just throw in the towel. Eventually I'd like to get to the point where I spread my WPA out over the whole week. I do usually do fine by eating them. I think because my job is so active and then pair that with some exercise and I can afford to eat the 35 extra points each week. My mom never eats her WPA, and now that she's had 6-7 weeks of solid weight loss, I think her body is in starvation mode. She was really down about gaining 0.6 last week after being very strictly OP. I told her to eat some damn WPA. She is sort of getting on my nerves because she is all "crazy WW person" right now, and I am obviously just now turning the corner. :)

Okay, it's off to make a yummy turkey taco salad for dinner and go rock out on my last night of work. I have pretty good patients this week, so assuming they didn't all go home today (this happens a lot on Mondays), it should be a good night. I am looking forward to unveiling my new attitude around El Bitchy and see how she likes it! :)