Do-Over

Yesterday was a crap day. Besides running my errands to get my decorating supplies and coloring my hair, I did NOTHING. And I ate a bunch of junk. I think my weird sleeping patterns got the best of me because I napped on the couch last night for about three hours, then went to bed at 3am and woke up at 5:30am. Ugh, but I pounded the coffee and am trying to just stay awake so I will be able to go to bed by 9:30pm tonight, since I have to be up at 5:30. I've pre-planned meals and snacks so that I can do what I do on night shift for the next two day shifts at work- which includes eating about every 2-3 hours after 12. For instance, on night shift, I eat dinner around 5pm and then I drink water until midnight, when I have a small snack like grapes and a cheese stick. Then at 2am, I eat my "lunch", which is usually a Smart Ones or Lean Cuisine or a salad and/or sandwich. At 4, I have greek yogurt and at 6 I eat some oatmeal or cream of wheat. Just enough to stop my stomach from growling so I can just go home and wash my face, brush my teeth and hit the sheets.

It will be a little different on day shift. I'll be guzzling coffee at 6AM and having a sandwich made of eggbeaters and cheese on toast, plus a Morningstar Farms Sausage Patty. That's enough protein to get me through until noon when I'll have my grapes and cheese. I'll try to break for lunch between 2 and 3pm and have soup and a grilled cheese, then at 4pm or so, I'll have my greek yogurt and I'll have an apple on the way home. I won't immediately go to bed when I get home from day shift, so I have points saved to have a Morningstar Farms Chick Patty on one of those new sandwich thins I bought the other day, plus some baked fries. Then I'll try to be in bed by 9:30. I'd like to do SOME kind of exercise, but it may just be a yoga DVD or something. Getting home at 8 and trying to be in bed by 9:30 doesn't leave a lot of time. I might just say "to hell with it" until Monday. Monday, I will be back to night shift, so I will sleep in a bit that day, probably skipping breakfast in favor of sleep, and then hitting the gym shortly after lunch. That will pretty much be all there is on the agenda for that day. Tuesday I plan on going to see D for the week, and am hoping I'm not completely worthless by then. I have a feeling it will be one of those nights where I'm falling asleep on his couch by 9pm...

I have a pretty big to-do list for today:

Straighten kitchen and living room (halfway finished)
Laundry (halfway finished)
Straighten upstairs
Make picture frame project (will post pics!)
Vanity bench makover project (will post pics!)
Gym
Make breakfast and lunch/snacks for Saturday and program coffee maker

I will probably make one excursion to Target this morning when they open too. I need a coffee grinder (I won some coffee beans at work that smell amazing and I'm just about out of my ground coffee, so I'll soon become elitist in my home coffee grinding.) I also need some paper for the background to my picture frame project and I'm still trying to decide on a color. Orange is the complementary color to blue, which are the color of my walls in my bedroom, but that totally won't work with the rest of the scheme. Black is too much. Or maybe not. I think I'll just buy several different colors of scrapbooking paper at Target and see what looks the best.

Today is about re-grouping. I don't have a lot of high hopes for the scale tomorrow, so I'm just crossing my fingers for a maintain. I decided on my 15 pound reward, which will be some kind of "firming lotion". After all, I have that beach trip coming up in May. My 20 pound reward will be a new outfit, and if I can lose 20 pounds over the next ten weeks (for a total of 30.8), I am going to splurge and buy a really nice-fitting, expensive bathing suit. Most of mine are sale items from various Victoria's Secret, Old Navy, and Target buys, and while they are okay, I think nicer fabric and better cups in the bust may make for a more figure-flattering suit. I saw this Trina Turk tankini last year in Nordstrom that was to die for. I'm hoping for something like that.

My attitude is changing this time around. In the past, I would have decided to just go crazy with the food and no exercise plan until my new WW week started. I know I probably can't salvage much in a day in terms of my weigh-in tomorrow, but there is no sense in continuing to veer off track. If this is a true change in habits and lifestyle, there should be no week-long breaks. This has not been the best week for a number of reasons, but the best thing I can do is make a new plan and move forward.

I hope to post pics of my projects later on today, and then hopefully I can pop on for at least a minute Saturday to post my weigh-in results. Good or bad, I'm ready to face the music and get on with it!