Commitment

Commitment is when you have a hellish night at work, full of ER admissions, rapid response team emergencies, crazy patients, and general feelings of "I hate this", and you still keep to your plans to finish out the day in a healthy manner AND make it to the gym.

I was exhausted this morning. I slept until 4:45 pm. I will probably be back asleep by midnight tonight. I was very tempted to get takeout, but decided that a trip to the grocery store would definitely be the better choice, as then I would have food for tomorrow as well. I decided I'd spend most of my remaining points on a dinner of Frosted Mini Wheats, skim milk and a banana. Not the usual dinner for me, but my days and nights are all mixed up and this is what sounded good at the time. I fight 5 o'clock traffic to make it to the grocery store which is chaotic and crowded. I shop the perimeter of the the store mainly and then make it over to the cereal aisle. As it turns out, all varieties of the Frosted Mini Wheats are on sale for buy one, get one free and they are SOLD OUT. Crap! I was so tempted to just load my cart up with pizza and chips and ice cream and just have myself a big ol' pity party. After all, I'd just woken up, I was hungry and I was grumpy. I'd remembered someone at work saying that the Fiber One version of shredded wheat was pretty good, so I grabbed a box of that, as well as the Fiber One Caramel Delight cereal, which I can only describe to you as "Adult Cinnamon Toast Crunch". Indulgent, yes. More sugary than I normally would have as a staple cereal. However, it was mega filling and did taste a little more "responsible" than full-fledged Cinnamon Toast Crunch, a childhood favorite of mine.

Then I was faced with the dilemma of how to get to the gym tonight AND watch American Idol live while talking on the phone to D. This is our weekly ritual whenever I'm not already down at his place. I just about said, "Ehh, I'll just go tomorrow." But, I also remembered that we're at the two month mark until I go on vacation with D and all of his friends, all whom have skinny wives. I decided it would be best to take advantage of the fact that my gym is open until 10pm. I'm getting ready to sign off from here, put on my gym clothes, pack my bag and have it waiting by the door before American Idol comes on. At which point, when AI is over, I will sprint out the door and get in my C25K training. Nothing more, because the gym will be closing, but if I can squeeze that in, I can then come home, do a few pushups and crunches, stretch, and be extraordinarily proud of myself for pushing through and having a good, healthy, productive day, despite it being all too easy to go the other way!

I love it! Hopefully it keeps me going all week!