Down to the Wire

I actually don't think I did that bad this week, given that I didn't track. I tend to not eat as much when I am with D, it's just the choices that I make that I have to be careful of. Last night's choice was one of those "danger zone choices": garlic knots, pasta primavera in pink cream sauce. I had probably a cup of the pasta, and tried really hard to clear out the veggies first, and only had 3 garlic knots, HOWEVER, this morning I awoke and finished off the rest. Cold. Yeah. So I didn't weigh myself. I will do it tomorrow when I wake up, but for Weight Watchers purposes I am using a virtual "no weigh in pass". I'm trying not to let it get the best of me seeing as how I have one more week until vacation time.

I'm planning everything for this week as we speak, in my new planner- cream colored patent leather with silver studs! I love a shiny new planner. Anyhow, and I've decided that in order to feel my best about myself next week, I need to make eating right and exercising top priority all seven days this week. Everything else comes in second place. I am even planning on working out on Sunday and Monday too, even though I am working nights, I WILL get in at least 30 minutes of exercise on those days too. I'm also going to limit sodas and stick to water and Crystal Lite in order to ensure that I have no water weight!

I'm pretty sure I'm not getting engaged on this trip, either. It was one of my two dates that I would think I might get engaged on, the other being our 2-year anniversary in July. Now that I am 99% sure it won't be happening on vacation, I've started to wonder if it will even happen by July. I have to admit, I'm going to be pretty irked if I don't have a ring on my finger by the time I move in with him. I'm funny about living together anyway and have pretty much never wanted to do it until I was at least engaged. I changed how I felt about that when I met D, but ultimately because of his move, we likely won't be living together before we are engaged anyway. It's just very frustrating because we're looking at houses together, talking about all the things we want at our wedding, considering venues together, he's even telling people about it, and I have NO RING. I hate to be a brat, but it's not fair. It's like we're going on with the party without the ring. I thought this kind of stuff would be on hold until the day I got the ring, and I'm just a little worried that this means he thinks he can drag it out for as long as possible. He assures me he has the money already set aside and that the main holdup is that he's worried that I won't like the ring. Well, that is just dumb because I have showed him about 100 different styles that I love equally. Ok, tantrum over. I just needed to vent. I never knew I'd feel this anxious about it all.

Off to get ready for work. Sigh. Three more work nights and vacation starts!