Update

I'm trying to decide just exactly how much I should lament on HOW HARD it is to get back on track whenever I allow myself a "free day". In the days leading up to my birthday, I was content with just going to Coldstone for some Sinless Cake Batter ice cream with a few sprinkles tossed in. That's like 5-6 points worth of damage. Then comes the night before my birthday, and I thought to myself, "What the hell? I'll just start tonight and have a 'free weekend' and get right back on track on Monday."

Sure. Sure I will. How have I not learned this lesson by now?? The easy part is the eating frenzy. The hard part is putting yourself back together when you are busy, working 12-hour days, etc. When I weighed on my birthday (skipped WW meeting), I was 210.8, up from 209.2. This week I wasn't off the charts bad, but I didn't get nearly enough water, the exercise stayed out the window from the previous week, and I didn't track. I'd start off with good intentions, but they just didn't seem to last through the whole day. I was still under 210 when I checked myself on the scale this past Saturday morning. I credit that to the crazy amounts of running around I've been doing at my new place of work. It's probably twice the size of the old hospital floor that I used to work on, and at night after work, I can barely walk for my feet being so sore.

Now that I've gone through my little "new place of employment adjustment period", it's time to get back on track. I've missed three weeks of Weight Watchers meetings, and honestly it's left me feeling like I want to give up. I know that's just because I have removed myself from being fully involved in all of it as of late. I think I need to come up with a "Weight Watchers Lite" that I can do when things get out-of-control crazy. I'm going to work on some modified guidelines that I can follow when I know I'm going to be insanely busy. This way I don't end up chucking everything and having a bitch of a time getting back on track.

I think for one thing- I have to make exercise the FIRST thing that I cross off my To Do list on those busy days, otherwise it ends up not getting done. I'm also going to be super diligent about packing my lunches the night before work and sticking to only what is in the bag. I have about two weeks until I go to Cincinnati for a girls' weekend at the home of my maid of honor. She has offered to set up some appointments to try on wedding dresses while we're all there, and while I honestly want to, I'm embarrassed about the size of the dress that I'd have to try on. Wedding dresses on average run about 4 sizes bigger than your "street size". I'm STILL traumatized by having to order a size 18 bridesmaid's dress several years ago when I was a size 12. Now I'm a 14/16, so seeing a 20/22 dress size might shatter me. But I have to get going on it pretty soon, right? Anyone been in this scenario want to offer advice???